Leave Me Alone!

I would venture to say that a lot of us with SB and other disabilities aren’t able to live alone for various reasons, whether it be financial or physical or whatever. I know that Im not able to. Mine is mostly financial.  Plus I do like having someone around to keep me company. But there are times when you just want to be alone?

I have a roommate/friend, who lives with me in my family home. He moved in about a year after my father passed away. We have our ups and downs, but for the most part, we get along very well. People who know me will find this hard to believe, but there are times when I am not the easiest person to get along with, shocking, I know! We are also like Oscar and Felix. I tend to be the slob, again, shocking, I know!

My roommate is very easy going. Doesn’t seem to let much bother him. I am the one who worries and freaks out if things don’t go the way I think they should go. He just looks at me as if to ask, “Are you done now???”

There are also times when I just want to be alone.  When you live with other people, this can be an impossibility. Granted, it’s not like I would do anything differently with him not here, but it’s just nice to be alone once in a while. I remember as a kid there were always other people around, my parent, my siblings….

If I wanted to be alone, I had to either go to my room or, once I got my driver’s license, I could go out of the house to be alone. That seems to be the way it is now too. Believe it or not, I have found my solitude at the gym. Yes, there are people around, but there are no distractions. I also like riding the lawnmower. I can think things through while I do these things. They are calming to me. I really enjoy them.

Are you able to get away from people? How does it feel? What do you do?